Sometimes I’m happy one second and the next I’m this awful sad feeling that I don’t have a name for quite yet. I keep everything inside until it pours out, but I guess it’s because everything’s so much easier when no one is worrying about me. I have this fake smile I wear and I guess it’s really good because no one notices that it’s fake. I work so hard to please everyone around me and it will never be good enough. I’m just a mess. I dont know where I want to go in life, but everything is happening so fast. My family’s so dysfunctional and no one understands my confusing unhappy life. God says everyone holds a purpose & I guess I do too, but I can’t figure out what it is. I dont know who I am even though I’m already so far into life..